Captivating Chaos

There is something beautiful about how moments of peace present themselves throughout chaos.

How amazing these moments are when they last longer than a moment's time.

As I think this thought, I am also reminded of how movies, television, plays, even music present these elements. I think of films where there is total disaster, or something drastic happens, or, better yet, someone's day is simply hectic and busy, yet for a moment the world slows enough for everything outside of the chaos to come into focus. In movies, television, plays, music and so on, it adds drama. Suspense. In every way, it plays on ethos.

It is being captivated in the present. Not subdued, but achieving a point of captivating presence. And what I mean by this is holding a level of presence which captivates others in the degree of presence you are in.

These, extended, moments are what I love. I enjoy being captivated-- pulled into something in such a way where internally I feel no other option than to be entirely and completely enthralled with what I am experiencing.

It is something I strive to draw out in others.

They are moments I work to enjoy.


"We're half way past the point of no return" I'm in love with this line at the moment. (Pink, 'Glitter in the Air')

I thoroughly enjoy when someone looks at another and says, 'how do you do it?' I was asked that twice today. It has reminded me that I am exactly where I want to be. I am headed in the direction I want to be headed in-- I see greatness in the future. And I recognize that I see future in this light because I work to see greatness now. Not just now, but in those little broken down moments. In moments of presence. I strive for presence.

An inner calm, inner peace during moments of pure intensity is exactly where I find myself now. Looking at it all at once, there is 'too much on my plate'. But I am in love with it. I am in a place where I feel calm, happy, and dare I say even relaxed regardless of all that is going on around me. I attempt to transition from one element of my day into the next and am greeted with some sort of issue, disruption, unexpected news or event, something to add, rearrange or interfere with my schedule. My reaction, though, is contentment.

It's odd.

I enjoy being in this place, being captivatingly present. I enjoy that I have learned how to allow things to move me in a very real and powerful way. I appreciate endurance and flexibility. I appreciate the ability to remain calm. I enjoy being there, being present in the moment and seeing and allowing it to be what it is. I enjoy letting it all fall away. I enjoy being present within moments of chaos.